Sometimes it is easy to look around at your life and exclaim "Everything is falling apart!" That is usually our response when things are not going according to our plan. It seemed that you had ordered and organized your life in a way that worked and made you happy and then, bit by bit, that order falls away and suddenly life looks like chaos. We might claim that we like adventure and the unknown, but what we really like is adventure on our terms and the unknown that we go looking for. We are not as adventurous when things come at us out of nowhere.
My life appeared to be settling into a comfortable pattern. It wasn't perfect, but it was manageable. I felt like I could relax a little and put some energy into self care or self improvement. I could breathe a little easier. Doesn't it seem that as soon as you have that thought, everything goes awry?
First it was one thing. "That's okay. I can handle that."
Then a second thread came loose. "Take a deep breathe. It'll be okay."
A third, fourth, and fifth piece fell... "What the hell!"
Landslide...."&@$<!!!!!!"
An amazing thing happened today as I was standing there looking around me trying to figure out how I was going to get every thing back together: God was there. He said "I've got this." I was literally trying to figure out how I was going to make things work tomorrow and he reminding me of a scripture.
Matthew 6:34
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
Believe me, today has a lot. I have no idea what is going to happen tomorrow morning. Maybe I'll know tonight. Maybe I'll find out in the morning. Maybe God will work it all out and it won't even be an issue. The point is, I can let that go right now. The only way for me to get through today, is to be present. I need to be my best today.
God's word gave me such peace that I was able to stop and look around and see that all this chaos is the beginning of something wonderful. In my mind, it is the swirling chaos that was happening before the big bang; all that potential, bubbling and frothing, ready for God to bring it all together into something wonderful. My life right now is not the aftermath of a destructive force, but the primordial soup that life will crawl from. I am standing here at the beginning about to witness the creation of the next glorious part of my life in God. I am so honored that God is allowing me to watch him work. I am being allowed to see a master artist work with his hands and it is beautiful.
Ecclesiastes 11:5
"As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things."
I don't know what will happen. I don't know how long it will take or how much pain it will cause, but I know that God is in control and that His plan is so much better than any plan I could come up with.
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My life appeared to be settling into a comfortable pattern. It wasn't perfect, but it was manageable. I felt like I could relax a little and put some energy into self care or self improvement. I could breathe a little easier. Doesn't it seem that as soon as you have that thought, everything goes awry?
First it was one thing. "That's okay. I can handle that."
Then a second thread came loose. "Take a deep breathe. It'll be okay."
A third, fourth, and fifth piece fell... "What the hell!"
Landslide...."&@$<!!!!!!"
An amazing thing happened today as I was standing there looking around me trying to figure out how I was going to get every thing back together: God was there. He said "I've got this." I was literally trying to figure out how I was going to make things work tomorrow and he reminding me of a scripture.
Matthew 6:34
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
Believe me, today has a lot. I have no idea what is going to happen tomorrow morning. Maybe I'll know tonight. Maybe I'll find out in the morning. Maybe God will work it all out and it won't even be an issue. The point is, I can let that go right now. The only way for me to get through today, is to be present. I need to be my best today.
God's word gave me such peace that I was able to stop and look around and see that all this chaos is the beginning of something wonderful. In my mind, it is the swirling chaos that was happening before the big bang; all that potential, bubbling and frothing, ready for God to bring it all together into something wonderful. My life right now is not the aftermath of a destructive force, but the primordial soup that life will crawl from. I am standing here at the beginning about to witness the creation of the next glorious part of my life in God. I am so honored that God is allowing me to watch him work. I am being allowed to see a master artist work with his hands and it is beautiful.
Ecclesiastes 11:5
"As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things."
I don't know what will happen. I don't know how long it will take or how much pain it will cause, but I know that God is in control and that His plan is so much better than any plan I could come up with.
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